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12:47p
i love my grandma.
even if she spells my name wrong in week-late birthday cards. :]


that cheered me up a little<3

ridiculously, wonderfully, inordinately happy as of late.

i thought i was happy for a while but being this happy has only made me realize how tightly i had my eyes squeezed shut for so long trying to hide the truth from myself and pretend that everything was good because i was afraid i’d never know anything better. i’m so glad i found it. i’ll probably still be a little bitter for some time that i wasted so much (lol looking back it’s going to seem like a tiny blip of time in my life) time and energy on something so inevitably fruitless, but my current happiness outweighs that by so much. 

that being said, i always have way too much free time lately. i really need to figure out what i’m going to do about my internship (aka find one that my department will approve) and start it soon or open up my availability at work and pick up more hours until i do find one. i dunno. i prefer working part time for now but more money would be nice. i already miss school. 

game of thrones, obviously. started book 3 today.

carrie.

dracula.

I loved you more than you will ever know
Sometimes we’re helpless and alone,
but you can’t let it keep you weighted down
You must go on
The hardest part isn’t finding out what we need to be
It’s being content with who we are
Stay who you are

We spent your birthday in Vegas. I thought a lot about the last time I was there and how the only real redeeming part of that weekend was spending time with you when you took me to see the Phantom of the Opera. It was a beautiful and magical night and one of a handful of cherished times I spent with you. I’m glad you were well enough to make the drive out then because it was one of the last times I saw you in decent health. I’m so grateful for the times we did have and also that I got to see you so much even after you weren’t well enough to travel. 

I still miss you so much. I might think about you less often but I know I’ll never forget you and how good you were and how much you cared and how hard you fought for all of us. You were one of the best women I ever knew. 

sharkusmarcus:

i was reading on my kindle last night with good music playing in the background while my girlfriend slept beside me. in that moment, there wasn’t anything that could make me any happier.

:) :) :) 

I could just relive Saturday night over and over again for the rest of my life.